When You Can’t Shake Your Shadow

Me and my shadow, well in this case lupus is my shadow, go everywhere together.  It isn’t that I’m afraid to go alone or for that matter be by myself.  But I can’t say the same thing about lupus.  Lupus, it would seem, goes through phases of being actively involved in whatever I’m doing or resting.

Of course adding the four-footed one to that equation means that it is very rare indeed when I find myself alone these days.  Not that I’m complaining about the four-footed one in my life, heck there are days I wish I could steal her energy.  Lupus on the other hand seems to have no qualms about stealing my energy.  Frankly I should learn that trick from lupus, but would I want to do that to the four-footed one?

And the problem with all of this is that well for starters my bed is getting crowded.  Crowded with my body, the four-footed one claiming a great deal of space for herself and lupus.  Lupus just sort of slips in and takes over whatever space it can find.

On top of my bed being overly crowded the house seems to be shrinking.  Now this is partially due to the four-footed one being overly active, so she now appears to be here, there and everywhere at basically the same time.  (She’s done grown now.)  Lupus on the other hand seems to be growing incredibly huge without any food (well other than my energy and such) at times.  Sure sometimes when lupus is hiding the house goes back to it’s normal size, but when lupus is more active I’m afraid it will burst out of the house and up through the roof!

These past few days as the four-footed one and I have gone for our walks, lupus has tagged along.  Not right besides us because there simply isn’t enough room on the sidewalk for all three of us, but just behind us.  I have been tempted to outrun lupus, but I know deep down that I can’t outrun lupus.  I’m fortunate if I keep it walking way behind me and give it the slip when I cut across a corner and duck behind a tree.

I fully realize that lupus will always be a partner in my life, wanted or not, but I’d like to lose my shadow a little more frequently if I could.


Some Individuals…

There are certain individuals who cannot resist a good puddle.  It doesn’t matter how big the puddle is, it must be entered with much enthusiasm.  Don’t worry about how dirty or clean the water is either, that’s not the point.  The point is to enter into the water and just enjoy it.

The problem with these individuals is that their joy upon entering the puddle cannot be restrained.  It is as if the water loosens the control and restraint they show throughout their lives.  And thus the great splashing must occur.  It isn’t their fault really.  I mean they seem unable to control themselves.  I try to remind myself of this when I encounter these individuals.  Well that and give them a wide berth because I’d rather not get splashed or soaked if it can be helped.  For the record this strategy has worked fairly well so far in my life.

Until.  Until I discovered that the four-footed one had found puddles.  When she was younger she wasn’t sure what to make of them.  Then she started walking through them, but not splashing.  However now, well now she has found the joy in splashing through puddles.  The bigger the splash the better.  (I’m pretty sure her theory is to splash the water up over her back.  I suspect this has very little to do with her getting wet and a great deal to do with getting as many casualties as she can.)

It is impossible to give the four-footed one a wide berth, not when she’s attached to me via a leash.  And this time of puddles are a given.  Pulling her away from one results in letting her get close or into another one.  It also means that this time of year I end up getting wet, from ankles to above the knees, depending upon the size of puddle she has managed to find.  So if you should see me out and about wearing rain pants and there is no rain present, please just don’t comment on my odd attire.  Just know it’s to protect myself.  From the splasher that suddenly entered my life.

When It’s Not Just A Blanket

The four-footed one got a new blanket.  A nice, soft blanket designed for her to sleep on.  Evidently the four-footed one has other plans for this blanket.  To date she has not once slept on the blanket.  She hasn’t sat on the blanket nor has to even stretched out once on the blanket.  She has, however, taken the blanket and waded it up in to a large heap to toss her toys onto.

She has used the blanket to hide her favorite ball, just in case I’d get up in the middle of the night and start playing with the toy.  She has used the blanket as a tripping hazard in the event I should be carrying a whole bag of food and trip over her blanket, thus she would end up with more food to eat.

So I tried to remove the blanket, however she won’t have any of that either.  She needs her blanket, just not in the way that I thought she’d need the blanket.  I guess it makes sense, who am I to decide how she needs the blanket or even to decide that she doesn’t need the blanket because she is using it in a way other than I would have used it?

So here’s to all those things we opt to use in ways other than they were intended or how others would use them.  Because we all have a different way to meet our needs.

…And Action

Sometimes you need to take action rather than talk about it.  In the case of the four-footed one this means you might bark about your food etc., but if you really want your bowl filled, bring your bowl to your human.

This morning she proved she has mastered this skill and is branching out.  It started with brining her food dish to me so she could be fed.  After that she went to her toys and apparently expected me to follow her.  When I didn’t she barked.  When I failed to come when she called, she brought me a pink dinosaur to play with.

Later on I discovered my shoe in the middle of the kitchen.  I don’t leave my shoes in the kitchen ever.  And if I were to leave my shoes anywhere, they’d be together, not just one random shoe in the middle of the kitchen.  So I put my shoe back and sure enough shortly there after it was back in the kitchen.

Did the dog want to go for a walk?  Did she need to go outside?  Nope.  Apparently a shoe on the kitchen means feed me.  Who knew.  By the way when she wants to go for a walk she brings me her leash, or st least today she did.  When she wants to go outside, well she hasn’t shown me that action yet.

Networking or Neighborhood Watch

The four-footed one has been keeping a careful eye on the neighbourhood. She knows when people are coming and going.  She sees the cats slinking around the various bushes, waiting for the birds to abandoned the trees in favour of the ground.  She keeps tabs on the garbage collectors, the mail being delivered and the children making their way noisily.

The four-footed shared her information.  Not with me.  Not necessarily because she doesn’t want to, but because we don’t share the same language. But when we are out and about visiting other dogs, she seems to share information.  The same as when someone comes to ring the doorbell.  She alerts her network of watchers, just in case.

Her network, unlike mine, is far-reaching and tight at the same time.  But her network is not unbreakable.  With the right offer of a distracting in the form of a delicious treat or perhaps a nice toy, a hole forms in this tight network.

Suddenky one of the watchers misses seeing something, and someone slips by unnoticed.  There is a gap in the information pipeline leaving the potential for an unpleasant surprise or an unwanted visitor.  Not that you can tell the four-footed one any of this.  She believes her network is solid, because she forgets how a small thing can distract her or her friends for a period of time.

Around Here

Around here we get up really early.  Not because we want a worm.  Not because we want to see the sunrise, although it is rather nice.  Nope, around here we get up really early because we don’t want to miss a thing.

Around here we stay up really late. Not because we sleep all day, if we did that we’d miss something.  Not because we have wild parties.  Nope, around here we stay up really late because there is a moon and starts to watch in the night sky.

Around here we tend to be a little tired.  Almost all the time. Some of us around here could nap, heck we start to nap, but we fight it.  Because we don’t want to miss anything that happens around here.

And what sort of things happen around here, papers get finished, grades get entered, food gets made and consumed.  Toys must be played with and floors mus be licked. Around here books get read, music is played and conversations happen.  The happening so round here are ordinary, simple and not to be missed.  That’s if you happen to have four-feet, keen sense of smell and vision not to mention excellent hearing.  If you happen to have four-feet, you can ensure that the ones with two-feet follow the rules around here.

Down Here

The four-footed one spends the bulk of her time on the floor.  She does sleep on the bed with me, she is occasionally in my lap while I sit in a chair when she wants a cuddle or when she knows I’m unable to do much else.  But other than that the bulk of her time is spent on the floor one way or another.

She has recently discovered the unfairness of the situation as I do not spend the bulk of my time on the floor.  The floor is hard.  The floor can be cold.  And the floor can be hard to get up from.  Somehow it seems that getting off the floor means climbing up a tall beanstalk to reach the surface.

And now the four-footed one has taken to insisting that I join her on the floor.  She barks non-stop if I sit in a chair.  She tugs on my hand, putting it in her mouth and pulling.  She is determined and bull-headed and demanding.  So I toss down a few large pillows to sit on  because the floor is hard after all.  But this does not make the four-footed one happy.

Not one bit.  It does keep her quiet, but she is not satisfied. She tries to sneak up onto the furniture that I normally use.  To her it is fair that I take her place on the floor and she takes over the furniture.  Because sharing is not in her world evidently.