Isn’t it funny how you can be there just sitting around, minding your own business and suddenly the gently flowing creek you happened to be sitting by is a river and the straight path you were following is all twists and turns. Sometimes it happens and you can see it happening and other times it’s a bit like waking up from a deep sleep and discovering that your hold world has changed while you had your eyes closed. (Everyone else seems to be aware of the changes or rather the changes are how it has always been to them, and you are struggling just to find your place.)
I was just minding my own business today, doing some research as I am wont to do and suddenly what was a nice and peaceful day changed into a hectic race to pull stuff together for something I didn’t even know had existed before a off-the-cuff text made its way to me. And it was as if I had awoken from a deep sleep and suddenly had to respond to questions and requests with tools I did not know existed, research had carried on with out me and there were new theories to explore and such.
So with a sense of excitement, thrill and yes apprehension I got into the race of getting things pulled together to submit a proposal because obviously people need to hear me speak about my passion. (As if.)
Once the proposal was submitted I tried to go back to my research, but I couldn’t. It was too “tame” or rather my frame of mind had shifted to something else and suddenly research was the last thing I wanted to be doing. (Not that chasing the four-footed one around the house with a squeaky toy was the answer either, but I did it.)
I think, at some point, I will get back to my research. Probably when I need things to calm down again, and once more the river will become a creek, the path will be straight and maybe, just maybe, I will rest against a tree trunk and take it all in.