I struggle to understand some things. Some of it may seem like common sense to others, but to me I just do not understand it. Such as abuse, physical, mental or spiritual. I know it exists and I understand it, but I fail to understand how someone can be bent in the direction of carrying out such abuse.
There are myriad of theories to be sure, but at the end of it, I just can’t see myself in a position of deriving joy or pleasure from abusing someone. I also struggle to understand why a certain group of people’s needs supersedes others. And this is a personal point for me. We all want to be first, we all want to matter and so on. But I fail to understand why one group’s need to be protected from certain substances takes greater priority than my need to have my pain managed. And no, I am by no means an addict nor am I seeking narcotics. However, when I show up in an emergency room in so much pain that I am physically sick and no longer able to speak without tears I would appreciate being afforded respect and dignity.
Not being labeled as drug seeking simply because there is a huge influx of people who seem addicted to pain meds and have learned to claim to have certain symptoms in order to get their fix. And because of these people, when others with chronic pain or such come in to emergency rooms in dire need of help, they are now looked at as being drug seeking. I do not understand how one group can be allowed to determine the health care questions and assumptions for everyone who walks through the door.
Of course I also fail to understand how we can have such a great understanding about addiction and such a little understanding of the many different ways lupus can affect a person’s quality of life and pain levels.
I struggle to understand why my needs and concerns are not taken as seriously by the government as the needs of addicts. And why I must be painted with the same brush as they are when my needs and situation are rather different from theirs. Perhaps the idea is, it is okay to waste my time and a nurse’s time going through a rather long and ridiculous questionnaire just to have a doctor review it before taking my lupus issues seriously.