I’m Dreaming Of Food…Or Channeling My Inner Chipmunk

Today I’ve been dreaming about food.  Well dreaming is probably the wrong word, lusting is probably more accurate.  I have been lusting after food today.  No don’t misunderstand dear friends, I love good food and I love sharing it with people I enjoy so it’s not unusual for me to think about food.  I’ve been known to plan whole menus as a means of pleasantly passing time and I’ve no shame in this either.

However today I’ve been running on the see food, think food, desire food sort of cycle.  I blame my medications partially for this shift in my food relationship.  I also blame people sharing delicious ideas and placed with me all in a very short period of time.  This sharing lead me to feel like I need to try it all, right now.  Not that I’m complaining about people sharing these things with me; whether we break bread together or separately but shared experiences I think is a wonderful thing indeed.

The thing is, though, between my medication, my lupus flare and the insane hamster on the wheel that is my brain, I fee exhausted just trying to figure out what to do and try and when.  And of course this makes my health teeter totter a bit more.  Again I am not complaining for I am blessed, truly blessed to have wonderful people to share food with and more importantly to not having to worry about where the next meal comes from.  I just need to tame the lusting of said food into something more manageable so food isn’t falling off my plate!

What’s In Your IV

aoI put in my request for a nice coffee, but she ignored me.  I don’t understand why I can’t have coffee in my IV instead of toxic medications to keep lupus at bay! 😉

Actually why can’t coffee, conversation, time with friends, good books and such be then urge for lupus?  I’d be much happier with that than the toxic meds I take now.

don get me wrong, I’m not ungrateful for the meds and how they’ve allowed me a quality of life that is closer to what I desire.  And I’m certainly aware that not that long ago people died from the complications of lupus.

But it would be ever so nice for the medications to not be so harsh on my whole body.  I’m okay with them kicking the heck out of lupus, but I’d rather not be the battleground thanks all the same.

but I guess if they put coffee in my IV it wouldn’t be the same as savouring the taste of coffee.  Although I suppose I could forego a few more hours of sleep from the “up” I’d get from caffeine flowing directly into my bloodstream.  Granted that might also give lupus more energy! 😳

On that note maybe I will stick to my toxic meds and savor the coffee when I feel up to drinking it! 😊