I’m not the best at following all the rules. There is a part of me that just has to see what it is that happens when you tell me not to,do something. However with this burn to my right hand, I have yet to peek at the hand through my own doing. I’ve seen it each day as the nurse has removed the mummy bandages.
I’ve seen it as the doctor looks at it and treats it and I watch it get recovered in all the wrapping again. And through this all, I expect something to suddenly show it’s healing because I’m following all the rules. I’ve kept my hand dry. I’ve let Beloved help with my hair, makeup and anything else I need help with.
Alas it doesn’t show much healing. The doctor assures me that good things are happening, but I don’t see it. Of course my lupus has decided to respond to the burns as well. Not only are they treating my burnt hand, but they are treating lupus too. And sometimes those two things don’t work well together.
So when I causally mentioned I could still feel a burning sensation in my hand, he told me that may be lupus. He wanted my specialist to come and look. He insisted on running labs. And all the while I wondered how this could be, since I was following the rules.
For the record the lupus specialist said things are turning a corner and to just continue what we are doing, but to increase one of my meds. And all I can think of is if I hadn’t followed the rules, would things really be any worse?
Beloved has gotten rather good with hair and makeup. He has figured out how,to,prepare meals that are wrong hand friendly. We both had a good laugh at me trying to eat spaghetti with my left hand when I right-handed. And I’ve gotten rather comfortable with my mummy style wrapped hand.