Have you ever looked in the mirror and not exactly recognized the person looking back at you? Or am I the joy one, who at times upon catching my reflection in a mirror or window think, ‘that’s how I look,’ or ‘I don’t look like that do I’?
For the record, yes I have access to mirrors at home. But also for the record a lot of times I leave the house thinking I look a certain way and when I get to my destination and catch a glimpse of myself it isn’t the same as it was before. Sometimes it is my hair that throws me off. But other times it happens when I’m dressed up and made up. Yes I know I’m dressed fancy, but since that isn’t always my style, it always catches me almost unaware.
Hey it isn’t always a bad thing either because sometimes I’m impressed with how I look. Mostly because it do snt match how I feel at that moment.
To be honest, if I looked more like I felt, well let’s just say it would be a messy up thing. Think goofy childish undead being with horrific decay and joints on fire. That’s a rough description in a gentle, or kind way of describing things. Some of that is coming from lupus, but some of that is because I do not feel all grown up. Yes I know I am technically an adult. And yes I have an adult job and responsibilities, but I feel like a rebellious teen who can still slip into that wonderment and glee of a young child. And when you feel so different from your external appearance it can be a bit of a surprise.
But maybe y’all don’t ever get caught by that reflection mirror. It is a shame if that never happens to you.